Dedicated to "all the lost girls and lonely women who are looking for love in all the wrong places-and in all the wrong ways," Susan's brutally honest memoir details her story moving away from being a lonely, fearful woman addicted to drugs, alcohol and the approval of others through the exotic dance world. Using poignant, frightening, humorous stories of her life as a stripper, Susan delves into the shadow side of sexuality and the proclivity to abandon herself for the approval of others in order to give insight and provide example for others of how to truly build a life that is full of love, self-confidence and self-esteem.
In "The Grind," published in 2005 in the anthology Flesh for Fantasy: Producing and Consuming Exotic Dance, Susan explains how money is made and flows as an exotic dancing independent contractor. "A boyfriend once referred to me as the consummate professional. Every night, alone in the pit I duke it out using an arsenal of luminous charms, colossal smiles, fetching eyes, gallant flattery, toned muscles, breath-freshening mints, and business savvy."